Movin' On YO!

So, it's that time in which decisions must be made. I have a lot of pretty big decisions to make within the next couple of months.
Those who know me know that acting is really what I want to pursue. While I am moving up, starting rehearsals for Fiddler on the Roof at the Croswell Opera House this weekend, to go anywhere I need to be somewhere else. So, that leaves the question of moving... to Chicago...??? While appealing as it is, it's also scarey to take that step. Granted I have family out that way, but I really have enjoyed living on my own and would not really want to move in with them. While I have heard the speech of saving, saving, saving, more times than I can count. I'm working getting out of debt, it's not that much, but debt is the general way of life in society today.

The other is just needing a fresh start. There are too many bad memories and too much painful times that I want to get away from. For some reason I feel I can only do that by leaving Toledo, not running away from them because I know that they will follow, but getting the chance to take a deep breath of FRESH air.

I ran a group yesterday, which the kids had a hard time with probably because of the topic, but it was on pain. There were two great quotes, Benjamin Franklin - "That which hurts also instructs," and "Pain is the shell that breaks the casing into our understanding," I can't remember who said that one. But if anything I think I got more out of the group than the kids did. I have struggled that past year with a lot of emotional issues, which some know about, and I have tried really hard to continually learn from them. I believe that until you deal with something it will cycle back around and keep presenting itself until you have come to terms with it. So I look at my situations and want so badly to not have them cycle back, they do, so I'm missing something. How can you fully evaluate something when you are so close to the situation? Shan Shan, hold tight to what you believe spiritually, ultimately your faith and strong spirituality is in you. I give you that advice, praying myself that I will one day be able to go back to my church and not hurt just walking in the doors. It's rough... but seek and you will find.

Another thing, of course is studying for the licensure exam again. Deciding what I want to do when I pass this time (please?) and finding a new job. I believe I have done all I can do at my current job and just want a new experience. I love the kids and I love what I do, but I'm not satisfied anymore. I'm beginning to feel suffocated... I need room to be creative. Of course, I can also pursue my passion for art, as well as acting. Ah, decisions.

So, I've babbled and I apologize. But I really wasn't complaining. Just letting you all know where I am and what I've been dealing with lately. Please pray for guidance and offer any advice heartily. I'm open ears and trust you all.

Ah, Another Experience That Fades to Memory

Well, just as Shan Shan and Benny wrote, we have almost completed our run of Godspell. It was an incredible show and it's sad to see it end. Like others free time was scarce during this run, but I would not have passed this opportunity for anything. The cast was incredible (all except this boy named Benny.. hehehe), the director talented and able to draw out what we didn't know we could do (I'm talking acting here people, get your minds out of the gutter!). This show was truly one of the best experiences ever! Of course I won't miss those hot lights. Which Benny is correct Shan Shan and I can't hold anything to Sponge Ben Square Pants, but for the record a sponge absorbs! Benny you left puddles everywhere you went (just joking I still love you, hey you started in on me first!). All's fair in love and war.
My only regret is that there wasn't another full weekend run, rumor has it that by word of mouth alone we would have a had a large house the next weekend. But, there is a reason for everything. We did, however, receive three, that's right THREE standing ovations this past weekend. One more show to go with our largest crowd yet.

So farewell to Godspell, but not farewell to the friends that have been throughout the show. I'm sure we will all still see each other, I mean for the past 2 months our lives have been each other, it's gonna be hard to just not have that anymore. Of course Benny and Shan Shan and I will correspond through the wonderful blogs we have, knowing that we are almost the only ones that read each others. Ah, life. Experiences that come and go, but what great knowledge you can take with you.

Rock On!

Day by Day or Tay by Tay

Day by Day or Tay by Tay?
Either way it remains the same!

Anyhow, it's just one of those weeks. I've heard that bad things happen in three, which I hope isn't the case, but I'm starting to believe it's true. What with failing my licensure exam by two points, having my storage unit broken into and everything stolen on one day, and then today leaving my ATM card in the machine. That's right ladies and gentleman, the ATM machine ate my card and the ATM Garoo won't return it until tomorrow! Plus gas prices are now rising and I have no access to the cheap prices.

But enough about complaining, I mean it ain't like everyone who reads this doesn't know this stuff already happened.

On the up, I am looking forward to opening night of Godspell, which is TOMORROW! Yikes! But, we are ready. We have an awesome cast, all very talented and devoted to the cause, although our Jesus could use some work (just joking). Seriously though, I have been blown away by the talent of everyone in the cast. Considering it is so small, luckily we all get along well.

And just to repeat what Shan Shan said, we do drip sweat after the first song. So anyone who comes to see the show and talks to us after, please don't tell us we stink, let's just assume that we already know that we will. But because you love us you will be the kind, precious people you are and not saying at all. In acutality we probably won't stink that bad, but man we sure do sweat.

Well I will sign off for now. And Benny if you read this, how about YOU update your blog. I'm still yawning and I read two weeks ago.